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Overcoming my anxiety

Anxiety is a condition that most people experience at some point in their life, whether they realize it or not. Some students get anxious about tests. Young adults (and many older adults) worry about being successful in a career and relationships. Unfortunately some people suffer from anxiety worse than others, and I’m one of them.

Most recently, my anxiety has been at an all time high. I’ve always had issues with anxiety and take medicine to help with it. I’ve been called a “worry wart” many times. I don’t know what causes me to have this condition but I have to admit it’s been getting worse as I age.

When my anxiety kicks in, I try to recall one of my favorite Bible verses to help me keep calm.

“Cast all your anxiety on Him because He cares for you.” 1 Peter 5:7 NIV.  

Through my faith (and medication), I attempt to keep my anxiety under control. I have gained a lot of insight from one particular Bible verse:

“Can any one of you by worrying add a single hour to your life?” Matthew 6:27

How true is that! Each hour, each minute, each second I worry only takes away from other joys I could be experiencing in life. But regardless of knowing and believing in what Matthew said, I still worry.

WHY?

I worry about raising my son in the world we live in today. Oh how I wish I could protect him from all the negative, non-Christian aspects of today’s world!

I worry about making the bond I have with my boyfriend last for a life time because I know God intended for us to be together. After two failed marriages though, I can’t help but have a lot of anxiety when I start thinking of getting married again.

My health issues have been my biggest problem lately. I’m so unsure I’ll ever be able to teach again. The combination of my chronic fibromyalgia and other health issues impede my ability to physically and emotionally handle the stress of any profession.

And what is keeping me up tonight you may ask? I have surgery this morning to alleviate an issue with my left sinus cavity just below my eye. Long story short, I had my jaws reconstructed about 15 years ago. During the surgery, screws are used to set the jaws in place but not removed later because most people never have an issue with the screws. But not me! If it can happen, it will to me! The top left screw has moved just enough to affect my sinus cavity below my eye. Now I have to undergo another surgery to remove the screw and fix the damage it caused.

Having surgery, though not wanted, never bothered me before my last surgery to remove a kidney stone. As the nurses strapped my arms down in the operating room before I was fully knocked out, I was overcome with anxiety and had a panic attack before the surgery ever started. During my pre-operative appointment this time, I have requested a strong dose of anxiety medicine as soon as I get situated in my lovely hospital gown.

I’m dealing with this onset of anxiety by reading these Bible verses over and over. Also, writing has always been a great source of stress relief for me.

I’m also reminded of another favorite Bible verse of mine.

“I can do all this through him who gives me strength.” Philippians 4:13.

God gives me the strength to overcome my anxiety. Though the relief of my anxiety is short-lived, I know I can make it through any circumstance as long as I focus on God’s promise to help me through every situation I face.